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07 June 2007 @ 11:20 am
Finding Humanity (Fanfic100)  
Title: Finding Humanity
Fandom: Detective Conan
Characters: Akai, Akemi (general series)
Prompt: #85—she
Word Count: 613 words
Rating: PG
Author's Notes: I do not own Detective Conan. It all belongs to Gosho Aoyama. I simply borrow the characters, tie them up, and dance them around like life-sized puppets. I do wish they’d stop complaining.
Summary: It was the stupidest…no, the SECOND stupidest thing she had ever done. Akai/Akemi

It was quite possibly the stupidest thing she had ever done. No, that wasn’t right—it was the second stupidest thing she had ever done. The first was getting involved with that man in the first place.

It was all so horrible—she knew going into it that it was a mistake. Her life belonged to the Syndicate, and they could do with it as they pleased—there were no illusions about that. As soon as she outlived her usefulness, she would be removed from the picture. No matter how much she wanted to run, to flee and be free of the Organization forever…

But she couldn’t run—wouldn’t run. Her sister was there…and he was there…those were the only things that made the black cage seem surprisingly attractive. But they were enough. So she let herself be caught up in that lose-lose situation. There was no way out, but at least she had something to hold onto.

Even if she knew it was a lie, that he wasn’t what he claimed to be, she clung to it.

He played his role well, though. Right up to and including the moment he kissed her. She let him. She knew what he was and that he had lied to her. By all accounts, she should have pushed him away and told him right then that she knew.

But…no one had ever held her like that. To have that kind of attention paid to her…to have someone actually treat her like a human being or anything other than a tool…her sister was wonderful, but it wasn’t the same. So she gave into the temptation and gave into the kiss, just that one time.

And when she closed her eyes, she could actually let herself believe that it actually meant as much to him as it meant to her.

When she told him the truth—that she knew who he was—he was shocked. And he asked her why she didn’t say anything if she knew he was just taking advantage of her. It had hurt to hear him say it like that. She knew it to be true, but hearing it come from him like that…it brought tears to her eyes.

Why hadn’t she said anything?

Because he made her feel like something.

Because he made her smile.

Because he treated her like a human being.

Even if none of it was true, there were still so many reasons…

But when she turned to him with tears in her eyes and a smile on her face, all she said was, “Can’t you tell without asking?”

She never saw Akai Shuichi again.

Not long after that, she struck a deal with some of the Syndicate higher-ups: one more job to earn freedom for herself and her sister. Somewhere deep down, she knew that it was yet another lie, that she would never be free. But she agreed to it and took the job.

That job was to become known as the Billion Yen Bank Heist…and she was to die for refusing to tell Gin where the money was.

As she lay dying, a young boy say and talked to her after introducing himself as a detective. He held her hand and heard her last words as the final moments of her wasted life slipped away from her. But it was remarkable…even though this boy knew her to be a criminal…he treated her like a human being.

Like he was sorry for her, even though he didn’t know her.

He could see a perfect as a person.

How sad. How tragically ironic, Akemi thought as she died, that someone would only find her humanity in her death.

PS. Written on request for ran_mouri82 and magicbulletgirl—they asked for Akai/Akemi. Man, this was hard to write…there’s so little canon for these two. So I hope I was at least partially successful. I like Akemi, even though we haven’t had much of her. Thanks for reading, all. Much love!

magic_truth: The Waysmagic_truth on June 15th, 2007 05:00 am (UTC)
I love this! Poor Akemi. She got a terrible terrible deck of cards dealt to her. While I strongly believe that one day Ai will be able to lead a regular life but I can't help but think that Akemi never got to have that.

It must have been so heartbreaking to hear that from Akai. How she kept it together as well as she did I have no idea. I would have burst in tears and run home sobbing. *laugh*
Candyland: DC3 [How do I...]candyfics on June 15th, 2007 03:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you!!

I've always felt really bad for poor Akemi. She did get a really crap lot in life...and really, she was only in the one volume (aside from the occasional flashback and whatnot), and yet she still managed to be interesting enough to persist in the minds of fans like she has. Might be why she tends to pop up in my fics...

I'd like to think that Ai will get to have a regular life, though...and you're right. I have NO idea how she held it together when he outright admitted that he was taking advantage of her. But I'm a sissy...but at the same time, I think Akai felt really bad about it. Whether it was because he was actually feeling something for her or because he felt guilty about doing that to her or he felt guilty about her death, I don't know...and on a side note, I refuse to believe that Akai is dead *pouts*

M.O.N.A.: 4 Things - Cran_mouri82 on June 16th, 2007 01:43 pm (UTC)
On that last note, I still wonder why the heck Gosho spent a whole file proving it. It almost felt like he was trying too hard!


It also makes things look more suspicious.